WTF Am I doing in My LIFE

Seriously Its hard to figure out what the fck Am I doing. I am soo fucking confused. I wanna be successful in my life but I don't know whats stopping me from being successful. I wanna be successful so much that I am not able to sleep, to be frank just 5mins back I tried to go and have a nap for 1hour or so, But I came back because I can't sleep only thing I see is I wanna be successful, I wanna be someone out of the crowd and I want a life where I can get everything I need except my dear dad :-( . So I am writing this to figure out what is really stopping me from getting successful.

Whats stopping me form getting successful ?

1.ZERO CONCENTRATION

If I can recollect I am here in this online earning world from July 2011. I started my first website on july 2011, it was basically a website on computer tricks and tips. It was all going good, I was amazed because I got traffic from google in few days only where as it was very less. Then I learn t about Domain and hosting and all. I bought a domain and started working on that, then even got a server by with very cheap offer by 2012 or so because of  some black friday offer. So it was all set then what was stopping me from working hard??

• I had good domain
• I had hosting for 6months

Then what was it which was stopping me from working and earning some bucks ??
I guess it was just me and my mind set, nothing other than that. I was stopping myself from being successful.

2. Distractions

I always get distracted, I cant stick to one thing. I should really find a solution for this from today. For example I got distracted ryt now to goto google and search for "How not to get distracted" or "How to concentrate on one thing", and once I go out of this full screen for googling definitely I will end up surfing on facebook and where in turn I will end up clicking something on facebook which changes my mind set.

3.New Ideas

• Technology blog : It was all set in 2012 that I would blog on technology and start working like one post per day and all. But then I read about niche websites.
• Niche websites:  From then on I started reading about niche websites because lots of ppl were earning a lot from it, so decided I should do that, got a domain on cancer. Later didn't even write a single post on that too.
• Affiliate Marketing: Then started thinking about affiliate marketing because people were making lot of money from it. Created a clickbank account and started seeing about offers, but by the end of the year couldnt earn a single buck :-p .
• Blog with John Chow:  I heard about Blog with John Chow and then I entered that thing, lost my money there too, But I never even logged in that website to see what information does he even provide.
• Smartincome ebook: I have friend in my fb friend list who earns hell lot of money but the good thing about him is he shares for free, he produced a new ebook about affiliate marketing and I got it and read each and every page of it but I didn't take any kind of action. AGAIN I FAIL!!!! I LOSE!! .. I DONT CONCENTRATION!!!
• CPA network : I started hearing about ppl who are earning from CPA, then again applied to few of the CPA network and even got approved in peerfly and adscend media.
• CPA training : Got to know about a CPA training and the guy who was giving training was a big guy who was earning lakhs crores per month, So I thought I should join this and its really worth of buying it and spent some 17k INR on that.
• Blog commenting : I got a offer on B& S group like Rs.5 per comment, So I thought should start from somewhere, might be this so that would be earning some 2k per month. So I started with this. To be precise today only I started to comment and I was like its soo tough, commenting also is tough, I can't do it and I should probably quit..,
  I SUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!
  I HATE MYSELF for being suchan asssholeee!!
• Adsense : Now today I have just finished CPA training and I should really work on that and even blog commenting but I saw a post on a friends wall saying he would provide a training on "How to earn from Niche websites via Adsense" for 6k INR, My mind is like lets even go for it..
  HAVE I GONE MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDD SERIOUSLY??
• CPA networking : Another friend of mine posted guaranteed income of 1000$ per month in next 3 months and he would be providing free tutorial, So I commented with "I am interested" But I never take action. I hate myself !!!!!!!!!
  I never take a topic till the end I quit in between.
• Adult CPA: I just viewed a hangout by a giant e marketer and it was awesome but I am not gonna work on that because I am an asshole! and I never take action!!

LOL while typing this again I got distracted and I ended up in facebook and I posted for the complete video again for the above CPA offer and almost 30+mins wasted and literally would have never come back again and this post also would be pending in drafts. But I started thinking what I should alter in my self and then I started smiling that I have kept this post pending and I finally I am back here to complete. I wish I start doing this from now on everything.

WHAT CHANGES I SHOULD MAKE in my LIFE FOR SUCCESSFUL????

• Concentrate on one thing at a time.
• Dont mix up everything
• Try to concentrate on one thing
• Once you take one project take that project till its completion, never leave in between!!
• Don't go beyond get rich in a month product, stick your plan and stick stick stick to it till you finish!!!!!!!!!!!!! till you succeedddddddddddd!!!!!!!
• Find a positive ROI project...
• STUDYYYYYY and STUDYY
• READ READ READ!!!!!!!

 I finally wants to wind up this post here itself, I hope whenever I come back my mind would come back to senses where I am going wrong and finally would start concentrating. Also gonna take a print out of this post for self motivation !!