I should change

In life, no one comes and no one can change your life other dan your self. I have made a 30 days plan for myself. I truly hope I stick to it. Also I would like to make another pact of staying away from all my friends and gf and every one for one week. I will just switch off my fone and mails . Lets see who turns up and who doesnt . as I keep on comparing my life with them, is it really fair to compare my life with them?.

I should start living my life, I have my own life, i should live it,. I should be happy. I guess so. because I cant be sad all time, People hate me, my gf hates me to d core.

I should probably live my life. I shouldnt compare. As I said 1month, 30 days pact. I would be a better person in 30days.

The only and only condition would be, not to complain Not at all complain and compare.

Second would be go for running for 1mile a day. thats it

Trying to be happy.

Try to concentrate on studies

In life there will be hundred people who would say you can be that successful and who will give you should do this that for successful and but you are the one who is driving your car.

During my college days, I had a charm in me , I use to finish all thejobs alone, I use to go to college, I use to study and get good grades not top but okay average. along with that I use to do loads of other work and tension. May be that tension was betterdan this idling life. I still love my dad a lot. I miss my dad a lot. I am alone in this entire life just a lonely soul

I would like to regain my interests, My dad would never wanna see me dying like this. He would scold me , he wanted to see me happy.. Smiling. I will smile I will come back I will start today. I will come backa nd I will start my life. I am gonna deal with it. I will go tomo to a psychiatrist and see what she has to offer me and ll lead a better life.



A lonely Soul 

In Bangalore and life has changed but it remained same.

We have shifted to bangalore, so called silicon city or heaven for engineers. bangalore has lots of IT companies and so on. I have shifted to bangalore looking for a job and change of place.

We shifted to a new place and from one side its good. New place new house lil bit of discipline and lot more. New CFL bulbs not old Tube light. House is elegant now. But its the same old life you know, I have to do all the work on my own. Not a single penny is covered by others and neither any one loves to be with me.

I got my internet connection just now and thought wil come back and write something for d sake of love.

My mom asked me to give 10 reasons to say how miserable life it is.

1. I dont have a dad, Dad I loved a lot. You know few days back I visited to hassan to my massi s place and there the host is of 56 years and still he has dad and he is d head of the family. can u believe? I am just 21 and I lost my dad at the age of 20 and stil I am working my ass of like an ass to do each and every work.

2. At the age of 20, I have got so much of burden over head. I am tired man. I dont need so much of burden or so much  of work , i am a kid, I wanna live the bachelor life . I wanna go roam and wanna be alone for few years atleast one or two.

3. Every person I know is havnig the best life than me. Or I can say that every person I know is having a lot better life than me. Lets take an example of

• Avijit pandith, he is doing fcking great and me a loser.
• Naveen, he has a got a job and he is going on november till den aaramse mast time pass .. eat outs no frustation
• Pavan, joined class got new friends, new life
• Sachin, who is enjoying his life in office, got into a company life is good for him,, visited resort
• Vasuda , working for techmahendra
• vibha, she is having d most beatiful life among all the people i knw. life is what every one dreams off for her. She is born with a silver platter and golden spoon. 
• nikhil narayankar, damn I cant even say anything. May be every single person dreams of life like his, lots of trips . happiness is all over him and noone can beat it, recently uploaded a pic of being in SOUDI
• sampada , got a job some where
• gaurav , in cochi working for wipro
• sayed going for infosys
• shreyaas going fr d same
• shayma same

Every person i knw is having a better life dan me

4.I dont have a house to stay

5. At this very yooung age I am doing each and every shit alone I am tired.. or may be i m repeating this again

6. Laptop lost my wife.

7. NO job

8.

Not a single person on earth can understand what I am going through, Its a lonely life.